Carlos Macias '99
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- Kathryn VincenKathryn: Right. I'll just have you say your name--
- Carlos Macias & Kathryn VincenCarlos: Mhm.Kathryn: --city you're living in, and your class year.Carlos: Mmkay, is it--?Kathryn: Yep, you're good.Carlos: (Coughs) Excuse me. My name is Carlos Macias. I currently live in La Puenta, California, near Los Angeles, and I am a member of the Grinnell College class of 1999.
- Kathryn Vincen & Carlos MaciasKathryn: So why did you come to Grinnell?Carlos: Well, I don’t know why I came... It actually was a little bit of a story. I hailed from East Los Angeles--Kathryn: Mhm.Carlos: --where I had grown up after immigrating to the US, and I was actually an undocumented student in an Honors English class. Heh, it was great.
- Carlos Macias & Kathryn VincenCarlos: So, I’m in my Honors English class, and, you know, there’s particular words that, when you hear them, they catch your attention?Kathryn: Mhm.Carlos: And you instantly-- Like, it could be your name. Somebody says it across the room, you don’t even know it is, but you turn. I heard the word 'free'. So, I turned, and I look at my Honors English teacher, and she’s giving out applications for Grinnell College, for entrance, because her son was interested in this school and she found that it was a very good writing school.
- Carlos Macias & Kathryn VincenCarlos: (Coughs) Excuse me. So, filled it out, didn’t think much about it, and then when the time came to make a decision, I had a few offers for a full ride in LA near one of the local schools there, or coming out to Grinnell, so I decided to visit. Once I came, I sat in a few classes; I was sold. It was- just the academic level was amazing. Plus, when I asked my parents where Iowa was, they asked: "Ohio?" And I said, "Yes! Score! I think I’m a good candidate for self-governance."Kathryn: Yeah.
- Kathryn Vincen & Carlos MaciasKathryn: What’s your first memory of campus?Carlos: First memory is kind of tough because there are so many memories.Kathryn: Mhm.Carlos: I came as a New Science Project. It’s this program that they have for kids- multicultural kids that come from, you know, other states, inner city, to get them acculturated, especially if they're interested in the sciences.Kathryn: Mhm.
- Carlos Macias & Kathryn VincenCarlos: So, I was very shy. I had actually just turned 16 years of age when I started here at Grinnell, and I was very introverted, so.. I was at the cafeteria here in North Campus and I was just sitting by myself drawing, because that was the outlet that I had because I didn’t speak to people back then, and the New Science Project students, a lot of them, just kinda came around and just said hi and kind of introduced themselves, and... that was the earliest, real strong memory that I have of Grinnell, is just that community of people just kind of bonding together, and they saw- they knew that I was younger and they knew that I- they could tell that I was introverted and a little bit of a loner and people just kind of accepted me and that was nice.Kathryn: Cool.
- Kathryn Vincen & Carlos MaciasKathryn: Was there a professor, or student, or a staff member who had a particularly strong influence on your life?Carlos: Well, the College as a whole had a very strong influence. My friend, Warren Marrel, myself, and a few others students.. really, we started doing something called the Latino Leadership Project when we were here, and to get this program off the ground- It was something that we thought of at a conference. We were like, “Hey, we stayed up until four in the morning thinking about what we could do to change the world and where could we start.”
- Carlos MaciasCarlos: Well, Des Moines is not far away. There's a lot of- we were looking at “at risk” youth that maybe we could have an impact on. So, we decided to try to see what other Grinnell students would do with a- especially with such a wealth of people who want to do social justice. And we got students together from the Department of Education to put together a leadership curriculum. We were using, from the Department of Psychology, Psychometrics to measure how we were doing. Warren was a Biology student. We can’t account for that, but... maybe development. I don't know.
- Carlos MaciasCarlos: But, we met so many professors, so many faculty that got involved in the process. Grinnell, as an institution, embraced it. The community of Grinnell and Des Moines. That- it was just an amazing impact because we hired college students to both develop the curriculum, and also to teach the curriculum to the high school students. It was a peer mentoring program where college- high school students that were at risk, we said, “Well, how can we get them to pay attention?” We said, “You know what? We get the kids that are slightly older, who are Grinnell College students, to be the ones that do this and maybe they'll learn from them.”
- Carlos Macias & Kathryn VincenCarlos: And it was just amazing, just, the support that we got, and to this day I still get random students- yesterday, for example- We flew into Des Moines, and a student that was completely impacted by what we did, and I had never met her before, but it's just amazing to see them.Kathryn: Mhm.
- Kathryn Vincen & Carlos MaciasKathryn: So did that project kind of help you find out a career path that you wanted to pursue?Carlos: Well, yeah. It got me the next job, yeah, right away.... Yes, it helped complete, I guess, my personal transition into what I want to do, and it’s a work in progress, but it instilled that love, that I want to have my own direction. Kind of, you know, Grinnell stayed- the Self-Governance.. process. It’s just something that is innate in me and I- it really flourished here and I always look for opportunities to continue to do that.Kathryn: Cool.
- Kathryn Vincen & Carlos MaciasKathryn: What are your best memories of your time at Grinnell?Carlos: My wife is here. (Laughing) No, it’s just the friends, the bonding you do. Just, friendships for life is- You take- it’s a funny thing that happens, because most of my friends were not native Iowans, so they came from Chicago, from Texas, Miami, basically all over the place, also, a lot of international students, were the people that I was most closely linked to. Buffalo, New York. Arizona.Kathryn: Yeah.Carlos: Yeah.
- Carlos MaciasCarlos: It’s just, when you take students out of that comfort zone, you put them in a completely new environment- yeah, Iowa- and within that microcosm, then you go into Grinnell, which is its own microcosm, and insulated... You don’t really drive anywhere, but you spend a lot of time... And add to that fact that, you know, these are some of the brightest kids in the country here, it's- Something happens that just, kind of, changes you and it’s pretty magical, I would say. Pretty amazing, at least for me. It transformed me.
- Kathryn Vincen & Carlos MaciasKathryn: What did your dorm room look like when you were here?Carlos: I was fortunate. I lived in Langan for my first semester and Norris for second semester. I had a single as a fresman for my second semester, and from that point in- or, that point on I mostly stayed at Spanish House. I became the coordinator of Spanish House, so kind of coordinating other people coming in. I also used to… They had a Spanish Table at the dining room where people could eat for free if they spoke Spanish and I didn’t have a meal plan.Kathryn: Yeah.Carlos: So, yeah, it was great.Kathryn: Cool.
- Kathryn Vincen & Carlos MaciasKathryn: What kind of clothes did you wear every day as a Grinnell student? And what kind of clothes would you wear on special occasions?Carlos: You know, that’s a funny question because I claimed Los Angeles as home, and there’s a certain style when you came from LA. You can't take- even Grinnell couldn’t take that out of me. So, you know, I had.. You know, I had different things that I would wear: anything from my “Cholo” outfits, you know, that I would occasionally wear, to some of the more stylish things that I liked to do. It was just... I probably--Kathryn: --LA style.Carlos: Yeah, yeah. That probably stood out a little bit here.Kathryn: Mhm.
- Kathryn Vincen & Carlos MaciasKathryn: Were there any special occasions, formal dances or anything, that you would dress up for?Carlos: Well, I guess the obvious: the Waltz and Mary B. James, and... Enough said. (To wife: “I love you, amor.”)Kathryn: What book influenced you most in college?Carlos: ...That’s a good question because I’m not sure that I had any particular book. I read a lot.
- Kathryn Vincen & Carlos MaciasKathryn: Do you have a favorite academic experience or class?Carlos: ...I’m thinking about it for a moment.Kathryn: Of course.Carlos: I think, the- I took a Psychometrics class in Psychology where- it was a special class that was got together and I struggled in it, mightily. I’m not gonna’ lie about that. It was awful! But it was amazing.
- Carlos Macias & Kathryn VincenCarlos: There was four professors and three students.Kathryn: Wow.Carlos: So, you know, you’d just sit there with all those PhDs around the room and they’d just destroy you! They look at everything that you didn’t think of, and because you didn’t think of it, you know, it was there for everyone to see the glaring exceptions to your work, and it really shaped, to me, on an academic level where things could go.
- Kathryn Vincen & Carlos MaciasKathryn: What memories or images do you have of the town of Grinnell?Carlos: Well, I actually lived in—my last semester—I lived off campus right in the middle- right in front of the Catholic Church--Kathryn: Mhm.Carlos: --and in front of the grocery store and by the bar, so everything was very convenient on a Saturday night. Yeah, you’d go get your snack, probably have your fun and then go confess in the morning, so... But I remember all the kids would come around and scoop the loop- just go around in circles...Kathryn: Mhm.Carlos: And more circles, and more circles. It apparently was very fun.Kathryn: Yeah.
- Kathryn Vincen & Carlos MaciasKathryn: How has Grinnell changed since you were a student?Carlos: Well, actually, my wife and I were talking about this. It's changed quite a bit. I was fortunate enough when I was here to be a part of the President’s Space Committee back in the time when they were designing the re- they were trying to redesign the campus, ‘cause when I was here it was still very differentiated, North versus South Campus, and two different cultures.Kathryn: Uh-huh.
- Carlos Macias & Kathryn VincenCarlos: The students almost never crossed paths, maybe in class, but then they would go their separate ways, dine separately. We had a lot of- were in the process of really starting to get more multicultural students and more international students at the time, and we were involved in all these things. And I was very fortunate to be a part of the committee that designed the new... the new center where we have the cafeteria, and the student activities..Kathryn: Oh, cool.Carlos: So, when I saw that, I nearly cried, because there was a lot of work that went into doing that.
- Carlos Macias & Kathryn VincenCarlos: Just to know that you had a place that it didn’t matter where you came from, it didn’t matter your race or ethnicity, your religion, you know, sexual orientation. You had a place that you could call home, and some of us.. you know, I came from East LA. I grew up in a community that spoke Spanish almost entirely. At home I still only speak Spanish. It’s something that I do, and I loved Grinnell, but occasionally I had to get away--Kathryn: Yep.Carlos: --and to know that you had a spot that was for you, it was just amazing when I finally saw the completed product, it made me wish I could re-enroll.Kathryn: Cool.
- Kathryn Vincen & Carlos MaciasKathryn: Are you- this is an aside- are you familiar with the Posse Program?Carlos: The Posse Program was started- it was starting. It was still a pilot project when I was here--Kathryn: Okay.Carlos: And that was... Actually, I could have mentioned that as one of the most significant things in my academic experience because Dr. Lopatto was very involved in that, and I got to do some of the first early parts of research on what was going on with the Posse Project.Kathryn: Cool. Two of my best friends that just graduated with me were LA Posse, so..Carlos: Oh, that's awesome.Kathryn: So, LA, but you don't actually live there.Carlos: Yeah.
- Kathryn Vincen & Carlos MaciasKathryn: Describe something that is no longer available on the campus, but that was meaningful to you: buildings or programs, activities..Carlos: (Laughing) Okay, it’s not a building or a pro- I mean yes, I miss the old Darby Gym.Kathryn: Mhm.Carlos: I had to get that out of the way.Kathryn: Yeah.
- Carlos Macias & Kathryn VincenCarlos: But what I really miss- ‘cause it’s not the same. You’re still doing it, but it’s not what it used to be- Two things: the Forum Grill.Kathryn: Mhm.Carlos: I did not have a meal plan when I was here, and there were times when I didn’t have enough money to eat. So, at the Forum Grill, they had croutons, and they had salad dressing, and all my friends would pick on me ‘cause, they didn’t know any of the specifics, but sometimes they would walk in, and they would see me with a big plate of croutons and salad dressing, and I just called them my crouton salads, and.. It’s a great way to lose weight.Kathryn: They are so good--Carlos: Yes.Kathryn: --when you're a hungry college student.Carlos: Yes.
- Carlos Macias & Kathryn VincenCarlos: And the other thing is, when I did have money, the big chocolate chip cookies. I'm not talking about the ones they make now. I mean, these things were massive.Kathryn: Huh.Carlos: And- I don’t know, I’m probably going to be a diabetic for life, just based on my consumption of these- but, man, those, microwaved for five seconds: they were amazing.Kathryn: Oh, yeah. The microwave is key. People forget that.Carlos: Yes.
- Kathryn Vincen & Carlos MaciasKathryn: Describe your favorite place on campus. Clearly, the Forum Grill, is a...Carlos: That was one of them, yes... I actually... I used to study in the Science Building--Kathryn: Mhm.Carlos: --‘til 3, 4 in the morning every day, and you know, it kind of felt like home.
- Carlos Macias & Kathryn VincenCarlos: But honestly, to me, my favorite place at Grinnell was just walking around like, at 2, 3 in the morning, when it’s completely quiet, completely safe, the moon is out, you know. Sometimes it’s pretty cold, other times not so much, but it’s just that peace that you felt. You know, you had been studying very hard. I actually worked almost full time most my whole career here, so I probably had to study later than most students, even though most students don’t sleep around here. But that peace that you felt, the tranquility- so, you know, I did what needed to be done, and you’ve earned this calm, just that complete silence before the cicadas come in.Kathryn: Yeah. Very cool.
- Kathryn Vincen & Carlos MaciasKathryn: So you mentioned Darby: what was... what did you like about Darby that you miss?Carlos: Well, it had history. It had character. It's... The PEC that that they have now has its own history, you know. It’ll build those memories, but it had been here for such a long time. You knew that there were so many memories there. I remember when the- Grinnell really developed that basketball program where they rotated the five, five, and five, and they started breaking all these NCAA records for three pointers.Kathryn: Mhm.Carlos: You know, it had history. Its own unique culture, and, you know, I’m a sucker for history, so..Kathryn: Cool.
- Kathryn Vincen & Carlos MaciasKathryn: If you knew then what you know now, what would you have done differently during your time at Grinnell?Carlos: That’s a tough question, ‘cause I don’t think I would have changed very much. I think, when I came to Grinnell, I was very, I mentioned before, very shy, very introverted, and something about the process here, just, the people, the professors, the staff, the faculty, just something about the environment brought me out.Kathryn: Mhm.Carlos: And yeah, sure, probably, like everyone, you make mistakes in the process, but mistakes are gonna’ be made when you’re- you know, when you're blossoming. I don’t think I would change a thing.
- Kathryn Vincen & Carlos MaciasKathryn: How would you compare the students of today with your classmates?Carlos: You know, I don’t know. I haven’t spent enough time with them. I presume that there’s.. that spirit of Grinnell still- is still there. I actually met with some students last year who were doing microfinancing and it was very déjà vu for me because the process of what they went through is exactly the same that we were doing back in 1998, when we were creating the Latino Leadership Project. So they had to do a lot of the same things, get a lot of the same type of resources together, and it made me... you know, it made me proud to say, you know, they’re keeping that same dream, that the same spirit, still here.Kathryn: Cool.
- Kathryn Vincen & Carlos MaciasKathryn: Describe student and campus life as you experienced it during your time at Grinnell.Carlos: It’s very bifurcated, so it's two experiences: One is the academics.Kathryn: Mhm.Carlos: I mean, everything here starts and ends with academics. The standards are amazing. What you learn is, you know, equally impressive. The amount of time that you have to dedicate, just that dedication, is wanting.Kathryn: Mhm.
- Carlos Macias & Kathryn VincenCarlos: And then you know, you finish, and you go with your friends, and then it’s a completely different life, it feels like. It's like, you know, you’re done, let’s go really explore a subject or, you know, go a little bit crazy at a Harris Party, watch the films that people put together, you know in… Oh, my God, I just blanked out on the name of the....Kathryn: Titular Head.Carlos: Titular Head, yes. Oh, Titular Head…
- Kathryn Vincen & Carlos MaciasKathryn: If you were writing a history of Grinnell College, what would you include from your years here? Any big events or important landmarks or things that were really important to you that you would want to include in the overall Grinnell history?Carlos: Well, there's some things that were kinda.... that I would like to include that maybe would not be noticed otherwise. For example, when we were here, I mention that I was here in a time of change when we were starting to really blossom in terms of multicultural love, you know, recruitment and retention.Kathryn: Mhm.
- Carlos MaciasCarlos: We started, in conjunction with the Admissions office, a program where we- where students, you know-- Let’s say a Latino student was gonna come to campus. They would ask Latino students who were already living here: “Hey, do you mind if this prospective student stays with you for the weekend?” whereas before they would stay with any of the volunteers, but then they really became a lot more.... you know, it really tried to target the resources a little bit better. And that's something that probably would go unnoticed because what that ended up doing was, that really increased the number of multicultural students, international students who felt comfortable at this school.
- Carlos Macias & Kathryn VincenCarlos: And say, you know, yeah, my prospective coming from a Spanish dominant-- you know, my mom cooked every meal growing up and it was just amazing food, and here they have Taco Johns whose motto was: 'There’s a whole lot of Mexican going on'. I’m not sure if that’s still their motto, but... It’s a very different experience, but the way that it was handled, it really helped spur that development--Kathryn: Mhm.Carlos: --and you saw, you know, the recruitment classes just become bigger and bigger and bigger, and you could feel the vibrancy.
- Carlos Macias & Kathryn VincenCarlos: And it’s something that-- and, at the same time was when the President decided- when they had the start of the Space Committee, and asked students from different ethnicities, one, different religious groups, different places, you know, to be a part of designing the new campus life, and you say-- You know, they really listened to us and followed- put us in a position to lead even if we didn’t really know where we were going at the time. So that. I would highlight those things in that history because it’s part of the way Grinnell functions and I would not want that to be missed.Kathryn: And I think it’s carried on into today, which is cool.Carlos: Yeah.
- Kathryn Vincen & Carlos MaciasKathryn: Well, that’s all the questions I have. If you have anything else you want to add, or stories that you want to be on the record or anything like that...Carlos: No. Well, for the record, I do want to acknowledge the passing of Warren Marrel. He’s an amazing person. You know, he will be missed and I know we’re honoring him today with an Alumni Achievement Award. It’ll be post-mortem, and... you know, he’s an amazing person and I think he defined the Grinnell spirit, and... you know, its...
- Kathryn Vincen & Carlos MaciasKathryn: Alright. Well, I'll have you say your name and class year one last time, and...Carlos: Mhm. Yes, ma'am.Kathryn: --you can go.Carlos: Carlos Macias, the class of '99.Kathryn: Thank you.
Alumni oral history interview with Carlos Macias '99. Recorded June 1, 2013.